Saturday, January 30, 2010

Morning Sickness

Morning sickness doesn't happen to me in the morning. It happens from about a noon on. Thankfully I really haven't vomitted, I just feel carsick instead. And honestly, I don't mind it! M/S is a good sign of a strong implantation so I'll take it.

I've been eating and eating and eating. I've eaten us almost out of house and home! I've been eating almost twice what I normally do and I have to eat late at night before bed because I'm starving again by 10pm. At this rate I'm going to put on 60lbs! I already can't button the top button of my jeans. I thought that didn't happen till at least 12 weeks.

8 weeks tomorrow!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Lima Bean!

My pregnancy isn't ectopic! My HcG levels are good and I saw the baby's heartbeat today. It was magical and I cried happy tears. Here's a picture of our Lima Bean.

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Friday, January 15, 2010

hmmm

When I look in the mirror it doesn't look like my boobs have grown but today I feel like they are popping out my shirt which certainly never happenned before. Interesting.

Wednesday I had horrific morning sickness until about 7pm. Morning sickness is supposed to be a good sign. Supposedly it means the fetus is implanting deeply into where it needs to go. So I'm probably the one lady in the world who is wishing for more morning sickness!!!

Other than that, not much else has changed. I go back to the doctor on Tues. I'm still trying to stay positive. I'm tired and hungrier then normal... And really, really, really trying to stay upbeat!!

Monday, January 11, 2010

From Bedrest to Pelvic Rest

So I'm officially off bedrest for the time being. Instead I'm on pelvic rest. What the h_ll exactly is pelvic rest? It sounds painful if you ask me! But no, pelvic rest means no sex of any kind (including using the vibrator which I don't count as sex but apparantly my OBGYN does), and no lifting, pulling, pushing, dancing, jumping, or exercising. And furthermore if and when I start cramping I'm supposed to sit down with my feet up and rest as much as possible each day.

So if I can't lift does that mean I can't take my 8lb purse with me to run errands? And can I even "run" errands since I'll need to push a cart? Can I vacuum if I kick the vaccuum forward? What about scrubbing? Scrubbing wasn't on the list and I don't count it as exercise.

I'm quite a literal person and these directions are too ambiguous for me. I mean I get the gist of what I can and can't do but a pamphlet would have been helpful!

So the best thing about pelvic rest? Husband cooked me a dinner of comfort foods! Baked chicken and mashed potatoes- yum!!

5 weeks as of yesterday and still staying positive. I even ordered some clearance onesies from babygap. That's a huge step forward for me!! And you know what? Being positive takes much less energy.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Casa de Positive Thinking

My house is now named Casa de Positive Thinking. Yesterday I was at the ER from 1 to 8:45pm. I had some cramping, and since cramping can either be normal in pregnancy or the first sign of miscarriage, Telenurse urged me to go to the ER. So I did. And I waited. And I finally got seen. They know I'm pregnant. It may or may not be an ectopic pregnancy- its a little too soon to tell. I also have some sort of a mass on my right ovary. I have a history of ovarian cysts so it might be that...or it might be another type of mass.

I'm not gonna lie, I was crying the ER. Husband was urging me to stay calm but when the ER doc saw me he flat out told me to get my shit together because stress would only make it worse. He said it could make or break my pregnancy. And while it took me a few minutes I did stop crying. In my defense, I was heartbroken after losing my first pregnancy and being in the ER, having an ultrasound, and seeing the Tech's face wrinkle was almost too much. Too many memories on top of raging hormones, exhaustion, and hunger. We'd woke up at 4am to get Husband to work at 5 only to find out the schedule had changed and he hadn't been notified. So after 7.5 hours of my life being spent in the ER I was on breakdown level. I hadn't eaten or had anything to drink and was actually shaking on top of all that!

So back to the main reason I'm writing. I'm back on bedrest. Now nicknamed "Resting Sabbatical." I'm in bed, watching TV, redoing my Farmville Farm, giving myself a peptalk, and praying. Casa de Positive Thinking is only for upbeat attitudes! This is a new year and I'm in our new house and its time for some new ways of thinking!!!! My Mom attributes her beating cancer to her positive attitude and I'm taking the same approach.